I'm Simply Not Skinny Enough

I'm 18 years old and have suffered from depression for the past 6-7 years. I've never been happy with my looks or myself as a whole. When i look in the mirror, I want to shatter it. When i purge, I truly feel beautiful. This is a pro-ana pro-mia blog, so do not follow if you don't wish to hear about my story or experiences or if you're easily offended, please exit now. :)

So,

the guy I’m seeing, told me the other night that I give the best head he’s ever received. Even better his most recent ex whom he was with for a very long. This is a very good thing to know… Helps with my insecurities.

He’s so perfect. Everything I want and not asking for a relationship! We have amazing sex and we go on dates and he’ll bring my drunken ass to bed and kiss me goodnight and do like boyfriendy things but all without the labels of a relationship that make me uncomfortable. Where have you been!?

  • me: wow could my thighs get any bigger
  • *sits down*
  • me: apparently yes
  • teacher: you will be sorted into grou--
  • me: can i work alone

That’s it!

As soon as I get my debit card in the mail, I’m going straight to the store and buying apple juice and apples and other fruits to make my fruit salads with.

I’m starting the Russian Gymnast Diet.

I’ve heard you’re really not supposed to do it for longated periods of time, But oh well who cares!

I’m also getting a membership to my local YMCA, so it’s ellipticals and treadmills and Zumba and swimming for me! WOO! Seriously! I cannot wait for this summer! :D